Lady Blackheart's Realm

      It's been one of those times when I am not feeling it at all. When I say it I mean the desire and passion to write. Write something...ANYTHING. At this point, anything I manage just feels forced.  It's like pulling words from my body like foreign objects, being bewildered at how they came to be there. I have been in this place before. This blocked gutter of pitch, with no guide or piercing light...but never for this extended period of time.       Normally even though my novels and stories sit collecting dust I can still exhale poetry easier than air . It comes to me in constant whispers. Perhaps it's the weather. Perhaps one only gets so much time to create and then it's taken from them. Whatever the case I hope it's not the latter because it's not whether or not I become published that I care about...it's the ability to still do it for the passion and love of it.  Be well all. Lady Blackheart 

   I know I promised an updated finished montage of photos when I finished my weighted blanket. Unfortunately, my sewing machine had other ideas ( that is a rendition of me after much swearing at it''s refusing to work. I looked just like Rhiana that day.Ok, Only in my effing dreams but attitude...all there baby.)  and since I am not a great or enthused about sewing anything by hand that large...it sits. It sits at least until I can get my inherited cursed machine to the shop. So I implore you to come back and see what other shenanigans I can begin only to add them to the pile of...someday I'll finish this. 

   It was drawn to my attention today that someone is ME on tik tok. Ok, let me rephrase that. They are using Lady Blackheart. This distraught human who brought this to my attention thought they were following me only to find out with one click that it wasn't. I don't have a tik tok account. I did make one after getting this message just so I could see this person.     Ok, so I looked and sure enough there it was in digital permanence. Now I am pretty mature and easy going. However, dammit, I have been Lady Blackheart since before all things digital. It's a long and personal story that comes from my other half. Lady Blackheart then evolved over time to also sometimes include or be seen/heard with Fierce, witch, and a couple other names. These are part of my identity. So while grown-up mature me was saying it's not a big deal...IT IS!       I mean it is my name my bitchy ass, Halloween loving, witchy persona so by farquad figure out your own shi...

      Something I’ve wanted for ages is a weighted blanket. I tried one that belonged to a relative and LOVED the soothing feeling of the weight. So I set out to buy one. After five minutes on line I discovered Just how pricey they were. Plus what I was looking for didn’t exist. I wanted something smaller than a full blanket. I was born hot...and not that good sexy way...just plain ass always needs a fan hot!         All the blankets I could find were child size lap blankets and SUPER expensive. Enter diy. So here we are. I thought about what I wanted and first bought the material and then the polly pellets. Twelve pounds worth. I actually wanted fifteen pounds but that would’ve meant another 20 dollars. I’m about half way done. It’s a little off but so far not s’bad to look at. Update soon. 

So the world has gone almost tits up! My intention after my last post in January was to have more bloggy posts on a regular basis. However, immediately afterward I became ill ( not Covid ill) and that took a several weeks long chunk out of life. Then along came Covid and my entire household along with much of the planet had to quarantine away like hermity Hobbits. To date we are still living this greatly isolated life. To be honest, I don’t mind that much  I like my bubble and prefer to stay in it. I do like my outings but don’t pine away for them.        So in the bubble I stay. Because along with health society has lost its mind. Protesting and bitching over haircuts, restaurants, coffee...or lack there of. I miss date night and Sunday matinees at the local theater but know what I miss more? My family, dear friends that have passed, mask free grocery shopping, and peaceful nights not worrying if my family will be safe. Will my family working in hospitals and e...

x Good morning from my realm to yours.        It's been a long time since my last entry. As it does for many, life intervened. I hope some of you are still out there. I hope you are rocking this January morning and loving life. I also hope some of you are still there as for now, life has slowed a bit. Hoping to share as well as learn new things in the coming days of 2020.