Lady Blackheart's Realm

     It's been a while hasn't it interweb world? The title of this post is what lots of people are asking when they discover I'm not home all day any more. As per usual things changed drastically and I had no time to keep this blog and inform people what I am up to( I mean if there are any people out there reading)! What changed? I, boss girl that I am, went back to work! Yup that's right. You heard me. I am working after many moons of being a stay at home chic this babe is working.       I must say I love it! Every hard, physical moment of it. It's amazing. What am I doing that is so amazing? I'm a personal shopper. I know it doesn't seem like much to most but for me it was a perfect fit! It has done so many things for me and my attitued, self esteem, SIZE!. ( lost 20 lbs!)      Working has also made me think about why I have stopped doing so many things I love. Write, candle rituals, taking time to work out, reading. I think I had lost...

So i finally got the vid. Back in May. Not fun. Whole clan had it. Even less fun. However we survived. Now it's Hell on earth with more heat than even Satan could stand I think. I got my covid booster in prep for my nee job. Caused a huge migraine. Plus it was 105 yesterday and thr AC in my van quit. Sooooo... How are you? lol Stay cool, be safe, and always...be fierce!

      It's been one of those times when I am not feeling it at all. When I say it I mean the desire and passion to write. Write something...ANYTHING. At this point, anything I manage just feels forced.  It's like pulling words from my body like foreign objects, being bewildered at how they came to be there. I have been in this place before. This blocked gutter of pitch, with no guide or piercing light...but never for this extended period of time.       Normally even though my novels and stories sit collecting dust I can still exhale poetry easier than air . It comes to me in constant whispers. Perhaps it's the weather. Perhaps one only gets so much time to create and then it's taken from them. Whatever the case I hope it's not the latter because it's not whether or not I become published that I care about...it's the ability to still do it for the passion and love of it.  Be well all. Lady Blackheart 

   I know I promised an updated finished montage of photos when I finished my weighted blanket. Unfortunately, my sewing machine had other ideas ( that is a rendition of me after much swearing at it''s refusing to work. I looked just like Rhiana that day.Ok, Only in my effing dreams but attitude...all there baby.)  and since I am not a great or enthused about sewing anything by hand that large...it sits. It sits at least until I can get my inherited cursed machine to the shop. So I implore you to come back and see what other shenanigans I can begin only to add them to the pile of...someday I'll finish this. 

   It was drawn to my attention today that someone is ME on tik tok. Ok, let me rephrase that. They are using Lady Blackheart. This distraught human who brought this to my attention thought they were following me only to find out with one click that it wasn't. I don't have a tik tok account. I did make one after getting this message just so I could see this person.     Ok, so I looked and sure enough there it was in digital permanence. Now I am pretty mature and easy going. However, dammit, I have been Lady Blackheart since before all things digital. It's a long and personal story that comes from my other half. Lady Blackheart then evolved over time to also sometimes include or be seen/heard with Fierce, witch, and a couple other names. These are part of my identity. So while grown-up mature me was saying it's not a big deal...IT IS!       I mean it is my name my bitchy ass, Halloween loving, witchy persona so by farquad figure out your own shi...

      Something I’ve wanted for ages is a weighted blanket. I tried one that belonged to a relative and LOVED the soothing feeling of the weight. So I set out to buy one. After five minutes on line I discovered Just how pricey they were. Plus what I was looking for didn’t exist. I wanted something smaller than a full blanket. I was born hot...and not that good sexy way...just plain ass always needs a fan hot!         All the blankets I could find were child size lap blankets and SUPER expensive. Enter diy. So here we are. I thought about what I wanted and first bought the material and then the polly pellets. Twelve pounds worth. I actually wanted fifteen pounds but that would’ve meant another 20 dollars. I’m about half way done. It’s a little off but so far not s’bad to look at. Update soon.